Stationary Drifting


Grey Friday

robots&greenjeans

//wearing my green pantsĀ  & my robot shopping/swim bag from Jared because I needed something bright in my life. Listening to Solange because I needed something uptempo//

Is it grey or gray? I can never remember. Either way it was not sunny at all today. I accidentally slept in really late because I turned off my alarm and so my body didn’t recognize the time as day time.

piscine st D

I was feeling sluggish and sleepy but I promised myself that I would go swimming 3 times this week. Plus I really like swimming. So I packed myself up and went to the pool. The pool was packed but I still managed a good 30mins of laps. The city pools in Montreal are free and this one is less than a 10min walk from my house. I like a good free adult swim in the afternoon to make me feel like I’m taking care of myself. Its nice to have some quiet time with no screens and the only sound is people swimming. Gives me time to let my mind wander, or think of nothing in particular.

St hubertmaison d'italiegrey dayI took the long way home from the pool because it was nice out despite the grey/gray and took some pictures of my beloved neighbourhood to remind myself that it can be beautiful in the winter too.

granola

Afternoon snack of my homemade granola with yogurt and a boozy bourbon marmalade by Silvie to finish off my little time off and now back to work on looking for work. At least with a fresh mind and stretched out body.

Happy friday everyone.

 

 

 


enjoying small routines

I’ve really started to enjoy things like cleaning the house, cooking, grocery shopping, etc. I love the small routines of taking care of myself and my living environment. Something I would have been horrified at hearing myself say a couple of years ago. I realize that its helpful that I don’t work 9-5 mon/fri and so my time is flexible. Minus the fact that I live pretty frugally with such a small budget, I really appreciate my lifestyle and my ability to go grocery shopping, or do laundry in the middle of the day when I have the place to myself.

I’m also happy that I’ve found so much enjoyment of solitude. I never thought that being alone would be something I would like so much. I’ve always been a bit of an introvert, not much of one but enough to require some alone time to regenerate every day. I used to go a bit crazy if I spend too much time alone, and I still do a little bit, but my length of time that I can spend alone has gotten a lot longer. I’m not going to lie, I love hanging out with Marseau all of the time but sometimes I look forward to a quiet few hours alone in the house when he’s gone. When I get to cook, watch tv, knit, blog, etc without having to talk to anyone for hours. Its kind of glorious and so different for me.

With the exception of Marseau, who is different than all my other living situations, this is the first time I’ve ever lived on my own. I went from living with family to living with roommates and usually living with a lot of roommates. I always really enjoyed those times. How busy and unpredictable the house could be. I still love spontaneous hang outs and house parties but I also love going home to my house, where its clean and my fridge is stocked with food I like and know how to cook. I love the quiet of it. The simplicity and how good it feels to make a home mine.

Sometimes when I think back on who I am I’m shocked at how much I’ve changed. I don’t know what has spurred this. It feels like it came on really fast but I guess in some ways it was just a process of getting older. Its interesting to look at the routines I love so much these days and know that the old me would have thought that I was boring and a sell out to the lifestyle I used to be fully committed to. And maybe I am boring and a sell out but I’m happy this way, I find enjoyment in what I do just like I did then. And while its a lot quieter, a lot less outwardly political, a lot less punk rock I still feel like my fundamental beliefs are there. I just express them with different hobbies. I think I’m also a lot more physically healthy than I used to be.

I still hate doing laundry though….


Bad Blogger

I don’t actually know what happened…I suddenly became terrible at blogging. Maybe I got more interested in Pinterest…I know that I’ve been spending less time in front of the computer, my days have been spent a little more running around. I also started a major addiction to Bones, I’ve been spending all my spare time watching that. I quit my cleanse, Marseau made a big soul food dinner about a week into it and I couldn’t say no, them I was totally off it and couldn’t convince myself to get back on. I feel guilty about that, and since I’ve been tracking it here I guess I was avoiding it. Jared got a job and the two of us kinda stopped taking pictures. I haven’t been very into writing down ‘small things’ they were feeling kinda repetitive. I lost energy, filled my time up with other things and haven’t written here in too long.

new month new start amiright? May will be back to the gym, back to the blog, back to the books, back to philly? Not necessarily in that order. Wedding planning is in hyper gear so I’ll probably be writing about that. Amongst other things. PULLING THE THREADS BACK TOGETHER PEOPLE.


spring cleanse: days 4-6

Day 4:

Feeling better but still not awesome. Not cleanse awesome anyway. I’m still waiting for that “glow” that everyone talks about where they feel amazing and all that good stuff. I miss eating regular food. I went to a restaurant and ate a salad, hardly worth going to a restaurant for. I don’t miss sugar and caffeine as much, which is good.

Day 5:

I drank last night. Alcohol is not explicitly banned from my cleanse but I think it would kind of make sense that I don’t drink. I made sure I had booze that wasn’t wheat/yeast based and drank it with tonic so that I didn’t have sugar. Basically I had gin&tonics. I know it sounds like I’m justifying but whatever, I had a bad day yesterday (not cleanse related) and I wanted a drink. In case you’re wondering, yes, sometimes I do reward myself with alcohol for bad days. Anyway, I felt okay getting up today. I really didn’t drink that much though I feel like it hit me harder. In the quitting smoking world I had one drag last night, didn’t like it and wasn’t tempted again. Feeling pretty proud of myself for that!

I did break some rules today though. I had some bread at lunch. I had ordered a sandwich that I thought I could take apart and just eat the inside. Turned out that that would prove difficult so I gave up and ate the bread. I got full really really fast and have been low energy the rest of the day. Seems like I can’t shock my body like that… I also had a coffee today, I was out with Silvie and didn’t like the tea selection! I had a long pull americano with soy milk. It was no latte. I think I will hold out on the coffee from now on.

I’m feeling more spritely today though. Definitely not amazing (probably because of the bread consumed) but definitely not crappy. Sugar and other food cravings are mostly gone, and I feel like I can avoid foods without too much trouble now (minus the bread and coffee rule breaking). I miss being able to eat whatever I want whenever I want but I’m less angry about it.

I do wish I was doing this with someone though, I could use some commiseration. Though I am also pumped a bit about relying on my own will power.

9 more days.

Day 6:

Blew my cleanse all to hell today. Mood and Marseau decided to have a soul food night and for a while I was thinking that I was going to just eat the stuff that’s okay and suffer through but I woke up today on a mission to break it. And break it I did. I ate tons of mac n’ cheese, cheddar buttermilk biscuits, breaded and fried chicken and asparagus, and beer, and ice cream for desert.

It was delicious and I don’t feel bad about it at all.


spring cleanse: days 1-3

I’m just going to do this like my small things project because frankly I can’t think of another way to do it right now. All I want is chocolate.

Day 1:

I started the cleanse today. I was doing really good too, drinking my teas, avoiding bread and dairy. I went to the gym. I talked it out with Marseau, we made a late (late) lunch and as soon as we were done BAM I wanted sugar really really badly. I rarely crave sugar anymore, mostly because I have been baking a lot, but IĀ  really think that this will be the hardest part.

So far I’m not feeling anything else that’s all that different or hard. I feel surprisingly pretty energized given that I haven’t had any coffee today, everything else is going pretty well. I’m hungry but I don’t know if that’s because I worked out or because I haven’t had my usual filling wheat flour. 2 weeks feels like a really really long time from here. I hope that I get some good results to keep me going.

Day 2:

I woke up feeling crappy. I don’t know if its because I’ve been sleeping badly or because of the cleanse but I feel like I have a cold coming on. I think its because of the cleanse though, I’ve heard that people generally feel shitty the first few days. If that’s true I’m definitely on schedule. Could possibly be from the fact that I quit smoking cold turkey too.

Also, I’m hungry. I gotta do some research of what I can eat because I need some good snacks that fit within these stupid restrictions.

I miss coffee and I miss sweet things. A lot. I still think about it all the time. Which is weird because I don’t think I ate really all that much sugar in my daily life but for some reason the fact that I can’t succumb to a craving is making me want it very intensely.

Nothing all that great to report today. I went to the gym and did my workout, but I didn’t feel energized like I usually do. I just feel tired, cranky, and a shitty. Things better look up soon or I’m going to go back to sugar. This is no trade.

Day 3:

I still feel shitty but definitely less shitty than yesterday. The cold symptoms are still gone and I’m not craving sugar quite so much. I’m just missing caffeine and am feeling a bit slow.

I’m starting to get angry at the cleanse though and how its blocking me from having all the delicious foods that I like eating. I considered quitting it this coming weekend when Marseau and Mood started planning a soul food night (how can I live without the cheese

smoothie for my sugar cravings, tea for my herbal stuff (I think that this is the dandelion root one)

biscuits and breaded chicken?). I’m still planning on seeing it through but I’m annoyed.

I’m less hungry though, or at least I’m starting to fill satisfied with the food I am eating and can feel decent after a big meal, not still hungry. I think that this means that usually I eat a lot of carbs to fill me up. I know that I’m not supposed to have gluten but I’ve kind of cut out most carbs (minus granola) for the moment. I’m going to look for rice crackers and maybe corn chips soon though for snacking. Must also get apples


Things recently cooked/baked/blended and enjoyed

My cooking bug is coming back. I think M and I take turns, one of us cooks and cleans until we are tired of it or think that the other one does nothing and then we switch. Either way I’ve been happy in the kitchen again lately and have been making lots of yummy (and a few meh, but I’m not going to showcase those) things.

this hung in my mom's kitchen forever, now it hangs in mine (I think my aunt might have made it, I should ask...)

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A yummy vegan apple crisp.

The recipe came mostly from Doris Encyclopedia.

it didn't last very long...

A is for Apple Crisp:

6-7 granny smith apples (I used apples that came in my food box, they were red, possibly royal gala and worked great/are delicious)
1/2 cup of butter (I used earth balance)
1cup of sugar (I used cane sugar)
3/4cup of flour (I used brown pastry)
1teaspoon of cinnamon

I also added about a cup of chopped almonds for some crunch. I chopped them really fine so that they mixed in well and cooked a bit.

Cut up apples really thin. Put 1/2 the apples in a square pan and sprinkle with a little cinnamon and sugar. Put in the rest of the apples (i placed in thirds and sprinkled after every one, including the last). It will really fill up the pan and if you don’t cut them thin they won’t fit.

Preheat the oven to 350. Mix all the ingredients, aside from the apples, then sprinkle them on top of the apples. Bake for 1 hour.

It doesn’t taste the same as buttery apple crisp but it’s still really delicious. M and I have been eating it for breakfast lunch and dinner.

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Bread!

Corrie send me this recipe for no knead bread a little while ago and I’ve been making it often ever since. It’s so easy and so good, I’ve sworn to never buy shitty grocery store bread again, and to rarely pay out the high prices for bakery bread. I do need a better pot than my cast iron pan though. Note: I use half white all purpose flour and half brown. It makes for more dense, less airy bread but it’s better for the body.

also didn't last long. I make this several times a week

Artisan bread

3 cups of white flour
1/4 teaspoon of yeast
1 1/4 teasons of salt
1 1/3 cups of water

Mix the flour, salt, and yeast in bowl. Add the water and mix with a spoon for less than a minute until you get a sticky and lumpy ball of dough. Add a touch of water if it’s too dry. Cover the bowl and let it sit in a warm place for at least 12 hours of rising (I tried 24 hours and…well, you’ll have to try yourself, but you won’t be disappointed). That’s right. Just leave it. Don’t knead it. The little fermenting bubbles will do all the work for you.

After the initial rise, scoop the dough onto a heavily floured piece of parchment paper (having the paper on a tray makes it easier to move). Pull the edges of the ball so they fold over the top and meet in the middle. You’ll do this 4 or 5 times so that all the seams of dough are on the top. Now flip the floury ball over so the seams are hidden (flour on the hands also helps).

Preheat your oven from 425-475 degrees F with one of those inside. The lower temp gives a softer tan coloured crust while 475 gives a crisp and chocolaty crust.

After the loaf has risen for about an hour, grab the four corners of the parchment and gently transfer the loaf and parchment to the preheated casrole dish with a lid ( the round white ceramic dishes with the blue flowers work great, I think it’s called corning wear) and slide it into the oven for 30 min with a lid and then 15 minutes without. Eat fresh or cooling on a rack for an hour does help you to get the biggest bubbles.

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His and hers humus.

I can’t believe how easy humus is to make, I will never ever buy humus again. M doesn’t like stuff in his humus so I usually make a big batch of plain, pour half into a container for him and then add the stuff I like. I forgot the olive oil in this batch but this is generally how I make it.

mine is on the left. M is mad now because mine is more delicious and his is gone

M’s humus:

2 cans of chickpeas, rinsed
1/2 can of the chickpea water
Several cloves of garlic
A few tablespoons of tahini
A glug of olive oil
Salt and pepper.

Throw all into the blender and blend until smooth.
I’ve been experimenting. My blender needs enough liquid that it will turn over but the humus needs to not be too liquidy. Hence the imperfect measurements.

K’s humus:

All of the above plus:

A big handful of cilantro
Cayenne and paprika to taste.

Blend until smooth or, in my case, until the spices are well mixed in and the cilantro is chopped up really tiny in the previous humus mix.

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Cantaloupe Coconut and Ginger Smoothie

I like to get something good in my belly first thing in the morning but when I first wake up I hate eating. Too sleepy. Drinking is okay though so I’ve been making myself smoothies almost every morning since I brought my blender home from my mom’s last fall. It’s so great and fresh and makes me want to face the day even more than coffee does. It’s also a great way to sneak in tons of ginger which keeps the winter sick germs away (I have a really terrible immune system).

i drink all my smoothies in jars. I just like it better

This is what I threw in the blender today:

Half a cantaloupe from our food box
1 organic banana from the market
About 4 strawberries from the market (the last from my grocery adventure last week)
A big chunk of ginger from the market, peeled and chopped (to avoid too many ginger strings)
A quarter cup ish of coconut milk
Filled to the top of the fruit with fresh pressed apple juice from the market.
A generous amount of locally made organic plain yogurt from the market.

Blend until its smooth and enjoy immediately. I put the other half in a jar and stuck it in the fridge for later, or for tomorrow.

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I like doing nice things for my body. As M said last night as he was snacking on bread and humus, it’s so cool to be eating all homemade things. Which is a big shift for the two of us since we both used to be chronic eaters out.