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Small Things Project: Day 66 (oct 3)

Today I’m happy that I got up early enough to have breakfast, make coffee and get to work on time. When I manage to do that I feel good about myself, like I’m handling my life well. The key factor in being about to do that was the fact that I managed a semi-reasonable bed time last night. Which also makes me feel good because, 1. I’m getting close to enough sleep & 2. I have some will power.

I’m also happy I managed to get 3 meals into myself today. One thing that really stuck out for me in my session with Sara was just how many meals I skip. I’m trying to take her advice to worry less about what I eat in this moment and more about making sure I do eat. She thinks it will help with my general lack of energy, I think that she’s probably right. So I’m happy that happened.

What else? I had another, really good thing to talk about but I lost it when I decided to click off the page and lost my whole post. Having to re-write it made me forget….

Let’s just say that I’m happy for a short meeting tonight so I could get home at a reasonable time. And for finding $20 on the street (which I kept because I didn’t see the person it came from). I also found a fancy samsung phone, which I didn’t keep because I have a smart phone too that that shit is back karma (& not many people can afford to replace those expensive devices off contract). I called a few people in the guy’s contacts and then he called me back on his own phone. He was so relieved that he tried to give me $$ for it, which I didn’t take (see above). I think he wanted to hug me but I was late for the aforementioned meeting so I told him not to worry about it. He told me I had great karma, which I’m hoping he’s right about. I could use some good karma in my life these days. I got plans that need some karmic love. Sooooooo, happy?


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Small Things Project: Day 65 (oct 2)

Oh MAN I’m tired. Mars is really really sick and I went to bed late, then he woke me up in the night, then I couldn’t get back to sleep, then I had to get up early and work late. Snoooooze. Its 10:30 but it feels like 3am. Working sucks for that.

The main thing that I’m happy for today I have to keep quiet about for the moment because I don’t know how it will turn out and I don’t want to put it out into the internet universe yet.

Instead I’ll say that I’m happy for my health coaching session I had with Sara Seinburg. It was her 1 year anniversary of her practice last month and she was giving away free sessions. I had one yesterday and it was really nice, and kind of emotional. I’m not sure why talking about myself honestly makes me feel teary but it does. Basically what Sara does is work through blocks identified by people from a physical health/nutrition perspective but also a mental health/nutrition perspective. I was really into in and really scared by it. I told her that I wanted to sign up with her but today I’m not so sure. I guess deciding to be accountable for making real change in my life is scary. I’m still not convinced I’m ready, AND I’m not convinced I have the money but I want to explore it. My goal for my 30ies is to be nicer to my body and to myself and this seems like a reasonable place to start. So I’m happy about that no matter what direction it goes.

I’m also honestly happy for my long term friendship with my buddy Mood. He met me downtown and kept me company at my work outreach social that I was too tired to be really social for. I like that guy a lot, I’m happy we’re friends. I know that that’s really cheese-y but its the truth. Hanging out with him makes me happy.

This video also makes me happy. I suggest watching it. 350 million + other people have.

 


Small Things Project: day 64 (Sept 25)

Today I am happy that my thesis advisor is so cool. I really just enjoy her company and passion and she always makes me feel like I’m capable of doing this, which is not an easy task at this point. One time she made me tear up because she went on a rant about how smart I am at a time that I was feeling really dumb. I really respect her and I’m trying not to feel too much pressure to live up to her expectations of me.

I’m also happy that my stress at work was significantly eased by a really good, realistic meeting today. Things still seem possible but the timeline has been somewhat adjusted to reflect reality, which makes me feel a helluva lot better about how this whole thing is going to roll out.

I’m happy for rad, intergenerational organizing groups too. I almost skipped out on a meeting I had tonight with a bunch of other prisoner justice groups here in Montreal but I sucked it up and went. I’m really happy I did because I learned A LOT, met a lot of cool people, and left feeling like Montreal has a much more solid PJ community than I ever imagined. I also signed up to get clearance at one of the local federal prisons so that myself and another person in my collective could go in and do some transformative justice workshops for another group that works with folks on the inside. I’m super pumped about that.

So I’m tired but I feel busy, which is good. Like I said a we a days ago, I need to do more with this life and I feel like I’m starting to start that not-exactly-simple goal.

I’m also really excited for my upcoming birthday, I have a package from my dad and Nancy waiting for me at the post office and I can’t wait to pick it up! I’ve been debating whether I want to wait until my actual birthday to open it and be an adult for once in my life, ooooorrrrr not. We’ll see how I feel once its in my grubby lil’ hands tomorrow…..

I have some posts lined up that just need some finishing touches before I post them but I’m too tired and its too late because I got home so late so they will have to wait until tomorrow. One is a picture of a hilarious outfit I’ve been rocking that I love, another is a photo/weekend round up on queer pop, i have to update on my simple goals and goal #3 this week, and I think there’s a couple brewing on crafting and my views on my gender presentation so hopefully I have some time to put those in queue this week. I’ve been really loving blogging these days (probably partially because its getting cooler and I’m better at projects in the non-summer), so to conclude, I’m happy about that too.


Small Things Project: Day 63 (sept 24)

I’m happy for being busy even if its stressing me the hell out right now.

I’m happy that my birthday is coming up really soon and I’m looking forward to spoiling myself/being spoiled a bit. Its been a great and also tough year and I’m pumped to do some special things.

I’m happy for queer pop and queer community. I spent the day volunteering there yesterday and when I get the chance this week I’m going to blog about it.

For now I’m going to bed because I’m happier when I get enough sleep.


Small Things Project: Day 62 (sept 22)

So today it feels like fall, its rainy and grey and cooling off. I’m happy I got to sleep in and fuck around most of the day. I got to have brunch with my boo and spend some time watching dexter, doing some photoshop stuff for coming posts, and send some emails. Its been just over a week and I am already r.e.a.l.l.y missing the amount of time I used to have to myself to do things like cook and blog and whatever else. I miss home. Now that its fall I want to start knitting/crafting again so maybe I need to get that going. Its funny because now that I’m out all day during the week I’ve become even more of a home body. Like I need to soak up the time I have now that I have it. I’m trying to push myself to do more things though, this life needs to be more involved.

So yeah, happy for cool fall days and for time at home.

// I made a SMP logo and am testing it out to see if I like it in the posts, trying to style up the text a bit for when I don’t have photos ///


Small Things Project: Day 61 (sept 20)

Just wrote a really long blog post so this one is going to be short.

Today I had a productive day so that makes me happy. I had a good day at work, and a nice evening with the hubby and borrowed cat. I worked on my blog a bunch, changing up the colours, researching self-hosting, some artwork. I nerded out on fonts for a while. M took a nap but when he work up he made us a super delicious dinner. So yeah, good day.

/// sweetest photo taken by M while I was at work. He lovvves her ///

ALSO, hilariously. The cat started working her anti-mouse magic last night and proudly brought us a dead mouse. We were hilarious with our, “goodddddd kitttyyyyyyy, that is ssoooooooo grosssssss”. Trying to decide the best way to get it away from her, and then what the hell to do with it, trying to convince each other to deal with it. That cat is happily installed in our house and its going to be really hard to say goodbye. I’ve been really happy to have her around.


Small Things Project: Day 60 (sept 18)

So.sleepy.

Adjusting to the new work schedule is tough. I’ve been pretty proud of myself for waking up on time, making myself breakfast and sometimes lunch, when M doesn’t. I’ve been pretty on the ball energy-wise at work, keeping up with my work and staying focused. By the time I get home though…so tired. Evenings feel really short, I feel like by the time I get home, chill for a minute and then eat its already time to start getting ready for bed. Actually, it just feels that way. Its only 9pm but I swear my body wants me to go to bed IMMEDIATELY. Too bad though body, I need some at home time too. Here’s hoping that soon I start to adjust to this new schedule and can start being productive in the evening too. I still got that damn thesis to write.

Today I’m happy that I got some serious work done. My new co-worker and I spent the day writing a funding pitch that is pretty awesome, not going to lie. I’m also happy for my fellow funding coordinator. She is pretty awesome and we’re having lots of fun working together.

I also have been getting better at making sure I have fruits and veggies to eat every day. I started making my fruit smoothies in the morning again, and had a really delicious sprout and tuna salad. Its been a slow start but I’m happy to be starting to get into it.

 


Small Things Project: Day 59 (sept 16)

Phew, I only worked 2 full days and I’m exhausted. Something about waking up to an alarm makes me sleepier. I guess it didn’t help that I stayed up really late on Thursday night on a double date hangout/goodbye to my good friend B, who has left town to return to the states for a bit. Either way, I was exhausted and not a little thrown off by this new work schedule and being stuck at a desk all day so I haven’t been on the ol blog.

SO, to return to STP:

Today I am happy that its beautifully sunny out and cooler. It feels like real fall, and although I’m kinda feeling sad that I missed summer in my haze of job hunting/being broke/feeling shitty, I am very happy that the fall is turning out to be beautiful. Maybe I should organize a weekend get away to the Eastern Townships with M at the beginning of Oct. I seem to end up there every fall, its a great place and M and I could use a weekend away.

I’m preparing a lecture for tomorrow on media life narratives for the class I’m TA’ing. Doing a real lecture is pretty scary but I’m happy for the opportunity.

Mostly, my happiness for these past few days goes out to M for being such a great husband. He’s been getting up early and making me lunches to take to work, climbing the mountain of laundry that we had built up, and picking up the cleaning and daily home stuff that I can’t do know that I’m away all day without complaint. I’m a pretty lucky wife.


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Small Things Project: Day 58 (sept 12)

Oh hey jump in readership, or should I say, hi dad thanks for looking at a few of my posts. Just kidding. I’m not going to lie, I keep my dashboard open on my web browser most of the time and refresh throughout the day to see if anyone has looked so I’m appreciating the few extra looks today and am happy for that.

I’m happy I got to see the world press photo exhibit today (you’ll have to google that because I’m writing on my phone and can’t figure out how to link). It’s been a couple of years since I’ve seen it and I forgot how intense it is, seeing all these tragic world events in huge format and all at once. It was some pretty incredible photography though and it made me remember when I was 18 and wanted to be a photojournalist. I wondered if I would have had the guts to take pictures like the ones I saw today.

I’m happy that I have a job to go to tomorrow, even if I’m ridiculously nervous about it. Night before a new job jitters combined with the fact that I haven’t worked a full time, year round job in years is creating an anxious twist in my stomach. So just reminding myself that I’m happy to finally have a job.

Side note: my plan to eat fresh fruit and veggies every day didn’t work out today. I tried to eat a peach this morning but it was rotten under it’s surprisingly still intact skin. Gross. Must remember to pick up fresh fresh stuff tomorrow and start in earnest.

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Small Things Project: Day 57 (sept 11)

today was a quiet day. I spent a lot of it working on emailing and planning my lecture for next Monday on media studies. I spent a good part of the evening working on this here blog and lining up some posts over the next couple days so that there’s something other than these small things posts for all you 2 readers to see. I did a little blog design planning and made some goals for the fall season. I’m happy for a productively quiet day.